Why

Every day my desire to move to Texas is increasing. It's not decreasing as would be expected with time. At this point, it's in God's hands. If an opportunity, and by opportunity I mean job, presents itself, I am going to take it. My life in York is stagnant. It's not bad but in order to make a change I have to step out of my comfort zone, step out in faith. I have to prove to myself that I can do this. I have a list of commitments that I am making to myself if I go. I feel that a different environment is the only way I'll be able to keep them. I don't completely know who I am. I know that sounds crazy. But I'm still growing and I need to be removed from all the distractions of familiarities and everyone I know in order to figure that out. I'm nearly 25. I need to grow up. Don't worry! God has a plan, I'm sure of it and I'm excited about it! He is mighty and He is in control of my life, even on days when I don't and don't want to admit it. My mom told me I can't go on feelings alone. But I view them as a manifestation of God's will for my life. My sense of home in Texas was the purest emotion I have felt in a long time, maybe ever. It's still going to be a struggle and there are aspects I'm really no looking forward to. I'm trying not to focus on those because I don't want to not to because of any hesitations. I know that I need to be there. I just pray that everyone will give me the support that I will undoubtedly need. I'm going to need to hear people's voices and be encouraged. I'm a social person and being on my own is going to kill me but a be a blessing at the same time. So pray for me. Support my decision. Believe in me. And don't you better keep in contact!

P.S. The futon will be open for anyone, anytime!