Fighting Within Myself

(written during the summer of 2005)

Fighting Within Myself

I hate myself sometimes
Putting my own interests before those of others
Forgetting about how good I have it
I'm selfish all too often
Wanting life's unnecessaries and frivolities
Thinking things could always be better, bigger

I'm not looking up, reaching out
Looking within instead
Seeing what I don't like and seeing what needs to change

I'm fighting within myself
For ways to be grateful
I'm fighting within myself
For release from the turmoil within
My soul's been battered and bruised
I need a total rejuvenation
I need Your help to defeat the worst of me

I get caught up sometimes
Worrying too much about myself
Neglecting the ones I love
I'm sinning just the same
Following Adam's footsteps
Trying to pass the blame

I'm not looking up, reaching out
Looking within instead
Seeing what I don't like and seeing what needs to change

I'm fighting within myself
For ways to be grateful
I'm fighting within myself
For release from the turmoil within
My soul's been battered and bruised
I need a total rejuvenation
I need Your help to defeat the worst of me

I've had no tougher opponent
Than the one I've created in myself
I've face no bigger challenge
Than the one I take on today
I'm fighting within myself
To defeat the worst of me